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Kate Stodgel
Artist | Student | Literature
United States
Raven: The black bird, the bringer of death, the one that needs no companion.
Lilith: Of the night
Jace: Healer; the initiator, the leader.

I am: strange, odd, weird, unique, lesbian, a goth, a straight edge.
I am: a writer, a singer, a reader, a dreamer.
I like: Books, chess, music, poetry, drawing, singing, flowers, books, and did I mention books?
I hate: people who hate me.
I will: Beat you if you mess with my friends, cut off your dick if you mess with me (if you even have one).

I don't like to sugar coat things. I am proud of who I am, and I hate having to change just to keep the peace. You only have one chance with me. If you blow it, you blow it. Period.

Current Residence: Somewhere inbetween Imagination and Reality
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Personal Quote: I reject your reality and substitute my own!
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Just one touch, darling.
What can it hurt?
Just one look, dearest.
There's no need to lurk

In the darkest corners of shadows
Where the moon will never shine.
Open yourself to me
and leave the others behind.

Pull back your skin
and open up your skull.
Remove the plastic smile
and let me see your broken soul.

One hand on your throat,
the other on your chest.
Let freedom take your voice and heart
While I rip apart the rest.

If you cry while you bleed
I promise to understand.
Not everyone can keep a smile perfect
here in Wonderland.

Don't worry about the broken pieces
I am going to see.
We can put them back together
with perfect jagged seams.

Just one touch, darling,
I promise your heart will be fine.
Before you bleed out I will replace
your broken heart with mine.
Underneath
I'm not really sure what happened here. It just kind of... came out, I guess. Not really sure how to tag it either. It's not quite free verse, but there's not really a traditional method to this either... Should I flag it? Urgh... Stupid useless brain.
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I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what I want. I'm scared.

At twenty years old, I'm supposed to know what I want to major in and what I want to do with my life. I'm supposed to have a part time job while being a full time student, succeeding, working towards a job that will make me happy.

I'm so tired. All the time. Either that or I'm hungry, which is making me so fat and disgusting and I hate myself for not having the willpower to stop myself and I'm too fucking lazy to get up and exercise. My mom is worried about me. About me getting sick because I'm a fat ass.

I have... ideas of what I want to do with my life. But they seem so stupid. I guess you could call them dreams.

I want to sing. Gods, do I want to sing. I feel so... powerful when I sing. Knowing I nailed a high note. Made people feel something.

But I also want to try and make a successful Let's Play channel on YouTube. Try and be like Markiplier and raise money for charities and give back to people. Maybe even meet him, tell him how he's my hero. 

I know they're stupid, these ideas, these dreams. I have literally no way of achieving them. I'm not a good enough/unique enough singer, nor am I attractive enough to be like Megan Trainor or Adele. Video games make me happy, but I doubt anyone would find me entertaining enough to actually watch. I'm just a sarcastic bitch who's shit at games. But, gods, I'd give anything to be even half as successful as Markiplier.
 
  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: doom and gloom on the news
  • Playing: Dragon Age: Origins
I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what I want. I'm scared.

At twenty years old, I'm supposed to know what I want to major in and what I want to do with my life. I'm supposed to have a part time job while being a full time student, succeeding, working towards a job that will make me happy.

I'm so tired. All the time. Either that or I'm hungry, which is making me so fat and disgusting and I hate myself for not having the willpower to stop myself and I'm too fucking lazy to get up and exercise. My mom is worried about me. About me getting sick because I'm a fat ass.

I have... ideas of what I want to do with my life. But they seem so stupid. I guess you could call them dreams.

I want to sing. Gods, do I want to sing. I feel so... powerful when I sing. Knowing I nailed a high note. Made people feel something.

But I also want to try and make a successful Let's Play channel on YouTube. Try and be like Markiplier and raise money for charities and give back to people. Maybe even meet him, tell him how he's my hero. 

I know they're stupid, these ideas, these dreams. I have literally no way of achieving them. I'm not a good enough/unique enough singer, nor am I attractive enough to be like Megan Trainor or Adele. Video games make me happy, but I doubt anyone would find me entertaining enough to actually watch. I'm just a sarcastic bitch who's shit at games. But, gods, I'd give anything to be even half as successful as Markiplier.
 
  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: doom and gloom on the news
  • Playing: Dragon Age: Origins

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toffeesmile Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2014   Writer
hello pretty moon flower ^^
how are you doing? just thought i'd drop by to let you know you're a beautiful person ❤ you're never alone in this fight, if you feel in need of someone to listen, you can message me. i wish you a gorgeous day.
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GhostGirl818 Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2015  Student Writer
Eep! I never noticed this comment! Uuughhh I feel like such a jerk right now... >///<

Thank you... You're very kind.

(BTW Moonflowers are my favorite flower besides day lilies... so it's funny that you call me that...)
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toffeesmile Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2015   Writer
aww, don't worry ^^ i never expect replies, just hope that people can smile about my messages.


(what a nice coincidence. i love moonflowers, too. and it's just such a gorgeous thing to call strangers, hehe)
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littlestar14 Featured By Owner May 22, 2014
Hey, I noticed you like to write, if your interested (it doesn't matter if your not) I'm holding a story contest here iwriteatnight.deviantart.com/j… . Don't feel like you have to enter if you don't want to though, I just thought you might be interested :) (Smile)
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GhostGirl818 Featured By Owner May 22, 2014  Student Writer
Oooh, I would love too! I'll get working on it right away! :D
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littlestar14 Featured By Owner May 23, 2014
Thank you! I am a dummy!:happybounce: 
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ReubenDeFlash Featured By Owner May 21, 2014  Student Writer
Hi and welcome to :iconwe-write-to-escape:

Thank you for joining the group and we hope you enjoy being a member. If you ahve any problems or questions, please don't hesitate to ask either myself or one of the other admins. We're all happy to help. :heart:

Thanks again and have a great day!

-Hannah (admin)
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brandojones Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2014  Professional Artisan Crafter
Thanks for watching me! =)
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elohcin111 Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Welcome to :iconwriters4life: :hug: If you have any questions, don't be afraid to ask myself, the co-founder, or refer to the group page.

-elohcin111 (Founder of Writers4Life)
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harlewood Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2013   Artisan Crafter
thanks for the fav!
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