So, I guess everything that has ever happened to me (the endless bullying, cyberbullying, and being corrective raped by one of my best guy friends) is my fault. Or, at least, that's what I was told.
I was told by my counselor, the one person who is supposed to be on my side, that because I was tired of living in fear and wanting to find a girl who made me happy, I opened myself up for all the harassment I endured. Okay, yeah, I can see that, but really? How is it my fault I live in a world where I am considered to be unnatural? Essentially, if I had been black, she would have told me to act white so I wouldn't be bullied.
"Okay, you're a lesbian. But that doesn't mean that you should advertise it. Don't hold hands with your girlfriend in public. You need to act straight so the harassment doesn't happen."
So I need to bend to society's rules of what is correct and what is not? I need to "act normal" so I don't make people around me uncomfortable? I need to force myself into some stupid mold and be miserable but, hey, as long as everyone around me is happy and comfortable, everything is fine and dandy?
Seriously? I'm sorry, but if that's what I need to do, I'd much rather die.